Cokes for cunts, pepsi's for pussies, Mug's for motherfuckers and Sprite for Shitheads. xD

I'm so fucking bored hahas. Can't wait for tomorrow..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME~ lol.

OH SHIT I JUST REMEMBERED!!! BIRTHDAY BASH WA FUCK..KNN I DIE MAN!

You tend to pursue many different activities simultaneously.
When misfortune does happen, it doesn't actually dishearten you all that much.You like following the rules and being objective.
You are precise and meticulous, and like to evaluate decisions before making them.You have a sunny, cheerful disposition.

I bend the rules, never have an objective at all. I ain't precise or meticulous, and sometimes evaluate before I make decisions. Sunny, cheerful dispostion? Always.

So it's almost true.

Suicide: The intentional taking of one's own life. Many dictionaries also note the metaphorical sense of "willful destruction of one's self-interest".[1] Suicide may occur for a number of reasons, including depression, shame, guilt, desperation, physical pain, emotional pressure, anxiety, financial difficulties, or other undesirable situations. The World Health Organization noted that over one million people commit suicide every year, and that it is one of the leading causes of death among teenagers and adults under 35.[2] There are an estimated 10 to 20 million non-fatal attempted suicides every year worldwide.[3]

I'm falling apart. I'm balancing on the knife's edge, and the parent-teacher meeting sent me over it. I'm falling, spinning out of control, into a vortex of death and destruction of my life. I don't wanna be like this. I wanna laugh, smile and be happy. I don't want to lose myself anymore.

Somebody. Anybody..

Help me

Labels: death, emo, kill, suicide

I'm sick of this. Sick of waking up, to the same breakfast. Sick of walking to school, to meet my "friends" whom I'll never see again for the rest of my life after I've finished my education. Sick of the teachers, the homework, the bullies. The whole insipid idea of "going to school" makes me want to crawl to a corner and die. I'm sick of seeing the same faces all over again. Sick of the gay I've to endure with Derrick. Sick of the 'emo' I've had to put up with Scott. I'm so tired of hearing the same bell over and over again. It makes me jittery. It makes me insane. I'm gonna snap if I have to endure every single piece of this shit I call my life. I see you everyday, all of you. I'm tired of it. I just wanna die. I just wanna lose myself in my insanity, to the whispers in my mind, telling me to

let go

and let it all out. No one cares. Why should I?

Then I see you. I see you in my life and it's worth the suffering. I see you happy and laughing and I laugh to myself, while all around me I'm getting put down with insults.

"Iman, you're so gay."
"Fuck off you gay."
"Is he gay?"
"Don't touch me!"
"Look at him. Thinks he's so pretty. What a fucking gay."

They think I can't hear them. I hear them all the time.

I've to endure all this, just to see someone in my life for a few, fucking, SECONDS. It's not even a minute and you leave me alone, with all the stares and the looks. I've seen the way my "friends" see me. I don't care. I've stopped caring. All I want is to see your face once more, before I finally leave this forsaken place and lock myself from the world.

Got our oral sex exam results yesterday. Hehe so happy I am. Why?
34/40. WOOT. A1 Baby!

But then My Fav. Sexy, Banu had to beat me. Wth man, she got 35/40. DAMNIT. 2nd highest..

I don't do ''seconds'' alright? Content being first. xD All the way hahas.
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Talked/chatted with Banu and Cat yesterday and the day before. xD I'm like, so five minutes ago, aren't I? xD Talked alot of things, from playing 20 questions with Cat, to talking about how Banu is black. It's weird, that you can talk everything and yet nothing to girls. Unlike us hawt boys, we can't talk openly about secks, dicks, cunts, or anything in between. So there's this, like barrier? I dunno. The only thing I do know is...

Cat would totally date Yu Hui if she was a boy,
I would date XhunXeat if I were a girl.. WHICH I'M NOT, BTW
Oh and, SexyBanu was already black when she was born. Fecking pigmentation shit.

----ToVictory!---

Had Mass ORGY RUN at CCK Complex yesterday. Ran 6 rounds...so..6x400m?
2.4 km in 15 mins. Shit sia, confirm get D for 2.4. Again. Feck.Ing.Hell. But nevermind, it's a good workout anyways. Went up the steps, saw Crystal, Jasmine and Lu Yi?
It's ironic you know, that they all know my name, and the only things that I know of them is that all of them are girls. Yeah I know, it's pathetique.

Suan( rub it in ) me and die.

It's a stupid one-sided conversation that we had, you know?

Jasmine: HEY, IMAN HI!!! *smiles so bright I almost fell on the stairs*
Iman :*Blank stare*, followed by =/, and then =S.
Crystal : *Enraptured by the cloudless sky, avoiding looking at me. LOLS? *
Lu Yi(?) : Stares.

Told you it was stupid.

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Today, P.E., I had to do the five stations. It was okay, got D for Sit-N-Reach, A for the rest ESPECIALLY FOR STANDING BROAD JUMP. X3. The rest were all C's or B's. Not bad I guess.

Oh, gotta fly now. Got Scrabble competition and CCA.

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AND SO DOES ANIMATION!

CRAP HENTAI FTW!!!
x3

I'll give a cookie to anyone who knows where I got my title..
And No, I won't fill in clues. Fill 'em yourself.
And Yes, I can bake cookies.
Without destroying the kitchen.

Replies to tags..

-Amilia-
Yups, Finally matured. Sad though. :'(

-WanYi-
Haha, what's the matter if you glam or unglam, you still look pretty to me. xD

-Dickhead-
Hehe, I'm gonna be as GAY as humanly possible man! Bring it ON!

-EmoPrince-
Lols, wanna put that theory to the test?

-Zona-
Haha, what can I say babe...My life way fun-ner than your's!

Okay..*note to self, keep all dreams to yourself.*

Thank God I did not whore my blog out to the world, cos If I did, that'd be SOCIAL SUICIDE. Ugh...

Moving on..

Yesterday I told you I went to Jerald's house for FJPL ( fun, joy, peace 'n' laughter ). And I was right, cos you see my dear readers/blog hoppers/bloggers, Dearest Jerald bought 2 kunais. What are kunais you may ask? There's two things that you can do.

1)Watch Naruto.

2)A kunai is a knife, that has a handle with a circular hole in it. It's like a dagger. Check it up on Wikipedia if you want to.

So he bought two plastic kunais. And I borrowed one of his kunai, and Jerald took one of his own. And we looked at each other in the eye, and then...

"FUCKFIGHT"

So we had a mock fight, which was PRETTY FUCKING FUNNY I TELL YOU. I swear to God, if I had a vid cam, I would so record it.

But wearing masks of course. I wanna keep what little dignity that I have left. xD

We played, like little children. We made those ultra cool SFX like..*pewpew,shing,slash* and the occasional grunt of "pain".

:/

I wonder if I'm ever going to get a girlfriend if I keep doing this, haha! Prolly not, but I wanna retain my childish behavior. It feels nostalgic, not being young again. Forced to grow up and be mature when shit gets shoved in your face. I didn't ask for this. No one did, yet they have to endure. Life is such a bitch sometimes, you know?

But what to do..persevere..and all that standard answer crap. Sometimes I wonder if the all the crap I'm saying through my mouth is all real. If it is, let me accomplish what I've said, because I don't wanna tok kok.

All
Day
Long

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Yesterday..(again) after my FJPL at Jerald's house, I walked all the day from Yew Tee to Lot 1.

Geez, I made that sound like an achievement or something.

So I walked. And walked. And walked some mo- HEY I FOUND A DOLLAR-

Anyways, where was I? Oh, right. Walking. When I was walking the half hour destination ride from his house to Lot 1, I had some time to reflect about my life, my dreams, my goals and my wishes. And then suddenly, I realized that..

I had no dreams. No goals or no wishes. I had nothing to live for in life, yet why am I still here? I'm like a parasite, leeching off others. I'm a pest, a fly on the wall. A distraction that sidetracks people from their goals. I drag them with me, cos I'm clinging on the flimsy prospect that somehow, through them, I'll find my life again. I'll find what it means to live for your goals, your dreams and your hopes. I'm living an empty life. A life with nothing in it. Crystal said once, on her MSN P.M.,

Even if you're on the right track, you'll get run over if you just sit there.

Wise words from wise people.

So now, I'm re-evaluating my life. I wanna feel that passion that I see in everyone of my friends when I see them. Some people live for love. Others' for money. Some for popularity or fame. Me?

I live, just because I don't wanna die. It's a coward's way of living. Live just for the sake of it. I only have one life, and I've got to make the most of it. There's alot of things that I wanna see, touch, taste, smell, and hear. I wanna see the world, but I won't deny myself of life's simple pleasures. I wanna hug my wife, my girlfriend, feel the warmth and love radiating of her whenever she's around. I wanna taste sweet Nirvana. I wanna taste the most simplest of snacks to the most exquisite meal I've ever had. I wanna smell new things, from the aroma of the best perfume, to the odour of a skunk's smell. I wanna hear only three words. Three simple words which seems so near yet so far away.

"I love you"

Nobody's ever loved me in a more intimate relationship. I admit, I'm not the most attractive, or the most athletic, or the most kindest and nicest guy you've ever met. You've probably met people who are all three of what I've mentioned. I'm not the perfect man. But I am THE MAN.

I bring the word MAN to IMAN

Wo shi nan ren, all the way.

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I think I've matured. Well, not really. Just..gradually. In time, I'll be older, and with age comes wisdom. I'll hardly smile. Hardly laugh. I'm not going to be a bisexual, fun, attention-seeking boy teen who laughs at the top of his voice. I won't crack anymore gay jokes, I won't be gay with my bros. I'm growing up.

I feel so sad. Like I've lost something important. A part of me has died today.

How about you?

I dreamt about Wan Yi today ( guys get your head OUT OF THE GUTTER ). It's nothing sexual AT ALL, SERIOUSLY. Just a simple dream.

Me and her playing Counter-Strike. Can you believe it? Weird huh? She was owning my ass-quite so-, and well, I got sick of it. So I pressed

"quit game"

And I woke up. With a REALLY desperate wanting to go out and play Counter-Strike.

Weird, isn't it?

Meh, whatever. It's been a long time since I've dreamt ANYTHING at all really.

I'm going to post later on today, about me going to Jerald's house for

FUN, JOY, PEACE AND LAUGHTER

Labels: bro, friends

This thing happened a week ago. The reason why I never updated was because I can. Fuck all who say otherwise. Moving on. To make up for you whining bitches/ bastards, I'm going to write a second post after this? Happy? You should be. I'm sacrificing watching the Matrix to cater to your needs.

Anyways, during Art class, Mdm Lin never came. Well she did, but she didn't want to entertain us with her boredom and intellect. So during the first period of Art, we slacked. Just contented with watching the world go by. You should try it. It's a break from the hustle and bustle of life. To sit back, relax, and enjoy the serenity.

Second period of Art was when all Hell broke loose.

Went to the Library cos' Mr. Koala asked us to. So off we went. Entered the Library and me and Scott finally had sexEMO-ED without Derrick to go all gay on us. Derrick, I'm sorry to say, but I'm already taken. We listened to a few songs, and then Sherry, Banu, Ridzuan and Amarul played Upwords.

Banu spelt 'Fuck' through sheer skill and Sherry spelt 'Suck' and 'Cock'.

I'm surrounded by horny morons.

If you thought that was funny, which I probably thought it wasn't, more like LAME, the killer came when Scott flourished his handphone out, and I was like ( since it was the first time I saw it ), I remarked,

"Wow, so dark and shiny. Real nice man."
"Yeah, I know. It's about as black as Banu."

-Cue awkward silence. Followed by hysterical laughter-

Dear God, is it a sin to laugh at one's misfortune?
Yes.
But it's funny!
I dont' care. Quiet before I own your ass.
=.=. *thinks to himself* What the f..
Hey man, I'm God. I know what you're thinking.
..Fish.

-Ignore anything I said up there-

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Periods came. Periods went. And then there was one more left. Biology.
Stuff happened. Most memorable?

Derrick sprayed spermwater all over my shoulder/sleeve. And some of it splashed onto the floor. So Ms Ho asked him to clean it all up, which he did.

Reluctantly, I might add.

So he's crouching on the floor, with two hands on the towel. He's cleaning the floor, and I look at him, and I laugh. Why?

1) He looks like he's getting anal by the way he's crouching.
2) He looks like an old man/beggar doing his thing. Cleaning up shit.

So me, being the merciful soul that I am, asked him,

"Hey, Derrick, you want some money? I give you la, since you look so poor. 5 cents can?"
Then I took 5 cents out and flicked it to him. He growled. LOL. I'm sniggering by now, barely able to contain my laughter.

Then he started wiping the table ( some of the water got there ) and Scott, being the ultimate asshole he is, started smirking. And he said,

"You missed the spot."

BAM! I lost it. Me and Scott had a long laugh after that. Then I got punched by Derrick. Sigh. Scott got lectured by Ms Ho. Then we went home.

Sigh, it's great to be in N/A.

Timothy!!! Why u nvr SMILE?? :D must smile man!

Wa lan finally I updated. LOL damn long isn't it? Anyways stuff happened today. Like...I went to the Lan shop opposite 10-mile-Junction..hehe... play lan leh..what else...

Oh yah I just remembered. A few days ago, me, Derrick, Hwa Tiang, Dion, Chun Hao, Scott and Jia Yi made a bet on English Common Test. Whoever get lowest have to go to the person that they like, hold both her hands, look her in the eye, say her name and you must say

"I Love Ew(you)"

So when the day that the results would come out, Hwa Tiang and Dion absent. Coincidence? Perhaps. Then the Chun Hao and Jia Yi hum ji don't want play ( Jia Yi got lowest ). Then MY RESULT COME OUT. I LOST 2 DERRICK SIA!!!!

FUCK WITH A CAPITAL F!!!!

To add insult to injury, I dunnoe which girl to choose from...xD Actually I got la, but then cannot cos later I'd be like DAMN PAISEH.

So..yeah.

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Feck. My stomach bloated from eating too much food. Ow...can't even walk straight..like I kena ass-fuck lai dat hahas....

Btw, you think I should have a little....Idk...adult content warning? Just a thought..cos I've received some feedback about this blog being quite...extreme.

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AND A BIG BLACK DILDO, FUCKER!

HAHAHAHAHAHAAH!!!!!!

CHEERS!!!!!
AND A HAPPY SATURDAY!!!!