I'm sick of this. Sick of waking up, to the same breakfast. Sick of walking to school, to meet my "friends" whom I'll never see again for the rest of my life after I've finished my education. Sick of the teachers, the homework, the bullies. The whole insipid idea of "going to school" makes me want to crawl to a corner and die. I'm sick of seeing the same faces all over again. Sick of the gay I've to endure with Derrick. Sick of the 'emo' I've had to put up with Scott. I'm so tired of hearing the same bell over and over again. It makes me jittery. It makes me insane. I'm gonna snap if I have to endure every single piece of this shit I call my life. I see you everyday, all of you. I'm tired of it. I just wanna die. I just wanna lose myself in my insanity, to the whispers in my mind, telling me to

let go

and let it all out. No one cares. Why should I?

Then I see you. I see you in my life and it's worth the suffering. I see you happy and laughing and I laugh to myself, while all around me I'm getting put down with insults.

"Iman, you're so gay."
"Fuck off you gay."
"Is he gay?"
"Don't touch me!"
"Look at him. Thinks he's so pretty. What a fucking gay."

They think I can't hear them. I hear them all the time.

I've to endure all this, just to see someone in my life for a few, fucking, SECONDS. It's not even a minute and you leave me alone, with all the stares and the looks. I've seen the way my "friends" see me. I don't care. I've stopped caring. All I want is to see your face once more, before I finally leave this forsaken place and lock myself from the world.